Monday, March 3, 2008

Accepting My Fate

So my conviction is wavering. My strength is fading. More importantly, my anger is subsiding. I am danger of forgiving....and it pisses me off.
I suppose it is unavoidable. It always happens right around this time of year. I am always experiencing serious sports withdrawal, and most years I begin to eagerly anticipate the start of the baseball season. In years past I have always already purchased new Yankee gear in preparation for the new season. This year I am at a loss.
There are only two pieces of Yankee gear remaining in my closet, the authentic Derek Jeter home jersey and the Derek Jeter batting practice jersey. (As I stated before, in spite of everything my support of Derek is strong.) Truth be told, I made almost $200.00 selling all of my Yankee gear on Ebay since my December temper tantrum when I swore off my lifelong team. It felt liberating at the time, yet today I am sad.
I went to the mall today and saw all of the baseball gear out on full display. Sure, most of it was Mariner's gear, but there was an ample supply of Yankee and Red Sox merchandise to be purchased in almost every sports store. In spite of everything, the desire to support my Bronx Bombers was still there. Under all of the anger and disappointment that they have caused me as of late, I found that it was almost impossible to walk away.
Isn't this always the case? I know that they will only hurt me again. I know that they will disappoint me again. I also know that I am lying to myself when I say that I am only using them as a means to get by until football season starts again. To go back to something that I know is bad for me makes me crazy...and completely female. It is in my DNA to be so stupid.
I managed to leave without buying anything, but I think that it is a losing battle. My pledge to be a Red Sox fan is unfounded. As angry as I am at my Yankees...I still love them, which of course means that by default...I hate the Red Sox.

What does it all mean? I don't know for sure but I think that it means that I have forgiven my Yankees. I think that I will return to my status as a loyal fan. It will be hard, but I think that it is possible for me to hate A-Rod and still love the Yankees. We shall see. There is no real loss in watching the Yankees...and we all know why. So in the end...I suppose it wouldn't hurt to give them one more try.

What can I say? I am weak.

Here is another pic from the My MC & Me collection.


THE TODD said...

I knew you would cave!!! Once a Yankee always a Yankee!

I can't believe that I am going to admit this but of all of the pictures of Derek Jeter that you could have used, this one was the one that convinced you to stopping fighting the losing battle? Not his finest shot.

Regardless, Welcome back Baby Girl! I already put a Yankee hat in the mail for ya.

Millie said...

One cannot fight fate...nor the appeal of the man named Derek Jeter. I would have been okay if it wasn't for that damn G2 commercial.

THE TODD said...

I don't get the appeal of the G2 commercial. He is just walking around like a rich prick. But hey, whatever works for you Millie Vanillie.

If you had to pick between Jovi or Jeter, who would you pick?

Millie said...

Don't be hater! The G2 commercial is damn amazing and you know it!

As far as your other question...I will save that for another night as it is worthy of its own post.

The Kiskadian said...

i knew that you would cave. you know, jeter is gay too right?

you are right though, chicks are dumb as shit.

Millie said...

You know... I think that it sounds more like wishful thinking Robin.

Dr. Fine said...

I have never thought that you were stupid. You are one the of the smartest women I know, as shown when you dumped the Kiskadian on his ass.

The Kiskadian said...

even after she dumped me she still didn't want you fine you homo!